Beijing Trip on First Day 2011

Hello Guys.. I just went back from Beijing since 2 weeks ago..
I'm sorry that i din update my blog since long time ago..

Well, that is my 1st time went to Beijing and i need to lead tour~~
*Oh my gosh, you can feel that how nervous was it* 
But I'm glad that my colleagues, they all teach me, show me the directions of airport that want to going to other Terminal at China (Shenzhen Airport - Bao An' International Airport)
Erm... At first i really scare that i will bring my small group customers to "Holland" but luckily i remember and follow the instructions of my colleagues told me and so, i success to bring them~~ ^^v
And beside that, i also got meet with the Beijing Local Guide! They are very friendly, nice and easy to communicate~ Well, i reach airport around 7am~ My customer they all reach at the airport around 720am, so i ask them to scan their luggage first. And i went to check in and "THROW" the luggage inside the Cargo! =)
Hmmm... What else? Actually my heart really scare for it, but i don know why that this trip is so fun, funny, and the customer really cute..

So, taadaaa~~~ Inside the airplane already lo.. Ready to fly to China and Bye Bye Malaysia~ =p
Erm... Its tooks around 2.30hrs - 3 hrs to reach China.. China really a big place for visit. Anyhow, its fun for it! ^_^  Erm.. inside the airplanes, i talked / chat with the customer.. Her name is Mrs Von, she is friendly, kindly and funny and of course she is the one i mentioned just now --> (CUTE) with her husband...
She ever follow my company trip to Shanghai at 2008~
Erm.. she told me that her 2 daughter already married and marry with "guai lou" means orang putih at England! :o woooow!! I really shocked when i listen for it..

Around 1230pm, finally i reach at the Shenzhen International Airport (Bao An' International Airport)... Wait wait wait and wait.. finally all done.. So i bring them to transfer to another Terminal B for the China Domestic Airport... And i bring customer to eat lunch 1st..
and deng deng!!! This is the lunch set that i ordered which is cost around RMB 27.50 oh... hohoho!! The foods quite nice, not bad, (Im feel so bad that i din eat well because i was rushing to do the another flight for check-in going to Beijing..

So after i finish my lunch, i fast fast run to Terminal B for finding / searching the check in counter.. At there its almost took me around erm.. 30 - 50 minutes and then i go down again to the restaurant and found my guest. They all like very relaxing, keep chit chatting.. Oh ya, my this group got 3 customers is don know how to speak / listen in Chinese and English, so i need to use Malay to communicate with them! Beside that, they are using the Dusun Language to communicate each other (how am i understand for it) *SIGH*

After that, around 2.30pm, i bring all of them to go the other Terminal as i mentioned early and just throw their luggage only.. Got 1 customer very stubborn, because he is a smoker, he love to smoke after meals! @_@''' So, his luggage got 1 lighter, I already inform him that do not keep / put at there luggage.. But yet, when scanned, its already been black-listed.. Haiz!!! But that is a small case... Because most of the people is quite stubborn as well! hmmm.. =X erm...

Its time to boarding already... weeee... This is the meals inside the Shenzhen Airlines! Erm... Inside the Airplanes is just like Air Asia also but this got provided with meals la...=)

What else? The flight from Shenzhen to Beijing delayed for 30 minutes.. T_T but is oke.. In other way, while waiting the flight is coming, i got chit chat a while with the local tour guide - Ah Fat... He's style erm... friendly, but.. *not good to say at here* Anyway, he really a nice guy, great tour guide i think..

and wait wait wait wait wait!!!

The flight finally came at 5.10pm... And we are ready to depart to Beijing!! ^_^ Inside the airplanes, i sit at the window side there.. and i can see the sunset in the sky.. Oh my gosh!! Its so wonderful for it, you see.. This is the sunset.. Is it beautiful?

Oh... Its really nice.. I love to take the photos of sunset, i don know why? Its like natural, created by GOD.. ^^
What else? Its really a nice photos!
                                                      Its around 8pm!! Reach Beijing Airport... We need to walk almost 10 minutes then only to arrrive the collect take luggage hall oo.. =X Its really a long journey for it... T_T tired tired tired... around 830pm, finally can meet with my tour guide.. and got car.. Its really tired day for just transit the airlines / airplanes ooo... hoho~~ My local guide is call Peng Hui... He is a very tall guy.. O_o i was shocked when i saw him at the first time.. Then bring the customer go eat dinner as the feeling of rushing eating.. After that, finally reach hotel!!! Oh yes!! Im happy! Because i can rest.. But, i cant.. Because after i give out all the rooms number, i need to check the room one by one! Asking them is there anythings else for the room? But in the end, all no problem! Means that i can done with my job!! Yes!!! I can sleep already~~

Choices

I was wondering that why we live in this world,
would be have so many choices? 

Choices of studies? 
Choices of working?
Choices of being friends?
Choices of in the relationships?
Choices of foods & drinks?
Choices of the moods?
Choices of the presents / gifts? 
Choices of books?
Choices of writing?
Choices of internet?
Choices of shampoo?
Choices of lotion?
Choices of make up tools?
Choices of vacation destination?


why do we need have a lots of choices in our lives? 
Can we live without them?


I just wanted a normal without stress, choices life only.
That's my simple way to continue with my life. 
But, could i do for it?

男人也有“月经” 周期约为28天月圆时发作

女人有月经(俗称“例假”)，那是上帝安排的。但上帝颇有幽默感，而且永远公平。男人每个月也有那么几天，在心理上有反应——一反常态，情绪低落……

周期大约为28天

像所有女人一样，男人也有“例假”！或许你会对此嗤之以鼻，但事实就是如此。每个月，男人也有“那几天”，而且就像女人的那样准时。

女人的心理波动，多和生理周期相关。男人虽说不像女人例假那样有明显的生理周期，但是，同样有大约一个月一循环的生物规律周期。每个月，男人也会出现一反常态的几天，不是爱发无名火，就是一声不吭，上班打不起精神，回到家里也没了“性趣”，似乎哪儿都不对劲。

这种周期性的情绪低潮，在男人中具有一定的普遍性。国外一些医学专家称之为男性的“低潮”现象。这实际上是一种生物节律变化，是男性机体激素水平变化的结果。

1.情绪周期在男人女人身上都有表现，但是男性的表现和女性不一样，男性这段时间被焦虑控制着，会严重影响学习、人际交往等方方面面。

2.一些病态的表现会出现在男性生理周期的低潮期，据国外一些研究显示，情绪节律周期大约为 28天，它影响人们的创造力和对事物的敏感性、理解力以及情感、精神心理方面的一些机能。在“情绪高潮”期，往往表现出精神焕发、谈笑风生；“情绪低潮” 期，心情烦闷、脾气暴躁，严重时甚至会有暴力和自杀倾向。

3.一切生物都有生物节律。人的生长、发育、体力、智能、心跳、呼吸、消化、泌尿、睡眠乃至人的情绪，无一不受体内生物节律的控制。只不过有的人节律明显，有的人不明显。

由于男人来“例假”不像女人例假那样有特别明显的标志，所以，不容易明确定位，也就容易被忽视。多在月圆时发作

每个男人的“例假”周期都是不同的，但有数据表明，男人“例假”比较集中的“发作期”，是月圆的那几天。比如，美国的研究发现，月圆那几天的犯罪率、自杀率、家庭暴力事件、酒精中毒都比平均值偏高。难怪拉丁语系的语言里，“精神失常”一词的原意是“受月亮影响”。

假如你是男性，你可以记3个月左右的日志，看看自己在没有突发事件或特殊原因的情况下，是否有以下奇怪表现：

1.工作状态低迷，反应迟钝，脑子不好使，不可能忘的事都会忘；

2.莫名其妙地食欲不振，包括对自己通常喜爱的美食也不为所动；

3.总是独自抽闷烟，一个人喝闷酒，而且时不时长长地舒气；

4.心不在焉：电视开着而不看，杂志翻着而不读，对自己通常感兴趣的事儿失去兴趣，连看球都走神儿，突然忘了谁在赢，甚至忘了谁和谁在打了；

5.既不是“重色轻友”，也不是“重友轻色”，而是一反常态地色友皆轻，哥们、女友都约不动。幽默不起来，也不喜欢别人开玩笑；

6.很容易莫名其妙的被惹怒，或感觉被冒犯，为小事会跟自己平时很尊重或友善的人争执；

7.喜欢一个人独处，虽然做出沉思的样子，但是根本不是在沉思，坐在角落里目光呆滞，郁郁寡欢；

8.变得冷淡，甚至冷漠，见了爱人也不再甜言蜜语，当爱人试图接近你时，你感到不习惯；

9.“性趣”大减，那几天夫妻生活过得极为平淡，对妻子的“暗示”装糊涂，甚至反感；

10.说话的节奏和语调变得快慢不均，声音低沉，言语不清，甚至可能伴有口吃；

11.头痛，或者全身感觉不适，但查不出什么问题；

12.时不时地发火，或为一些莫名其妙的小事忧心忡忡；

13.睡眠并不缺乏的情况下却总是犯困，或者失眠；

14.拿筷子或勺子的手变得有点发抖，菜或汤洒落在餐桌上；

15.老是抱怨口舌生疮，牙齿肿痛，甚至口腔溃疡。

此外，你还可能有的症状是：过敏、磨牙、反胃、嫉妒、背痛、脖子僵硬等等。在这段“假期”里，你还会疏远认识的人，甚至独自离家出走。

经过3个月的记录，如果上述10多项中有两项以上比较有规律地出现，你就找到“例假”期了。

在男人的“那几天”，多数男人即便内心波涛汹涌，表面上却是胸有成竹、泰然自若的样子，其实是在暗暗地和自己较劲，死扛硬顶……结果，就稀里糊涂地做出自己都无法解释的傻事。 

老公就是要找这样，女生一定很幸福。

1：无论何时何地都会很亲切的叫你宝贝或者亲爱的。

2：逛街时，不厌其烦的陪你逛到脚抽筋。还笑嘻嘻的关心你累不累。

3：你在身边不抽烟。不喝酒。外出应酬也会为了你而少喝酒。

4：做的一手好菜，就是不让你下厨房，说你做饭怎么不好吃，其实是担心你被油烟熏到。

5：吃完饭抢着刷碗，埋怨你洗得不干净。其实是怕你伤到手。

6：捧着零食陪你一起看他并不喜欢的片子，一边看一边喂你吃零食。

7：你睡觉时，会帮你把踢掉的被子盖好。

8：每天都会重复很多话，让你烦。其实他只是为了关心笨笨的不会照顾自己的你。

9：总吵着说你这不好那不好。其实再他心里你是最好的。

10：散步时，会和你十指相扣，牵着你过马路。

11：每月至少和你闹一次矛盾，目的是让你知道。你在他的心里有多重要。

12：愿意在他父母面前说你怎么怎么好。

13：有一个知己，而且你熟悉。

14：常对你说：“为了我，不许不开心” 

15：什么事情都不会瞒你，包括前女友来找他。因为他相信你。

16：同样大的年龄，你永远比其他人开心和美丽。

17：为了不让你做家务，要和你猜拳，你出剪子，他出布。

18：买衣服。吃饭都会会征求你的意见。

19：闲来无事，陪你聊聊天。谈你们的孩子以后叫什么名字。

20：有爱心，会养宠物逗你开心。

21：和你朋友一起吃饭，他的表现总是让你很自豪。

22：你做错事情，总要和你争论一翻然后他会道歉说“：宝贝我错了。” 

23：手机24小时开机。确保你任何时候都能找到他。

24：更喜欢默默的聆听你的抱怨。

25：记忆力很差，但是他对你的承诺，你对他的要求他却怎么都不会忘记。

26：爱唱歌，即使五音不全也会为你唱你喜欢听的歌。

27：很有上进心。

28：知道你喜欢什么讨厌什么。

29：吵架总是他先认错。

30：知道你和你父母的生日。

31：每天都会做好可口的早餐送到你床边。

32：跟你父母通电话会说：“伯父（伯母）你们放心，我会好好照顾你们家宝贝的......” 

33：每天睡觉前会讲笑话给你听。

34：睡的比你晚一点，醒的比你早一点。

35：从来不要求你要怎么怎么对他好。

36：偶尔会给你个小惊喜。

37：手机上你的号码是第一个。

38： 不管多忙都会发信息告诉你。他想你。

39：每次打电话都要求你先挂电话。 

40：从来不在乎你的体重是不是增加了。

41：会在你面前撒娇。

42：听到你说减肥，他会做很多好吃的，然后告诉你有我在你就不需要减肥。 

43：知道你化妆品的牌子。

44：会陪你哭陪你笑。

45：会买很多你爱吃的零食给你。

46：会帮你洗脚。

47：你的照片随身带在身上。

48：在你面前像个孩子一样。

49：你喜欢的衣服。他会毫不犹豫的帮你买下来。

50：你的生日，情人节或者什么纪念日总会买花给你。

51：不希望你受到一点点委屈。

52：永远都相信你。

53：生气时绝对不会和你吵架。

54：是个醋坛子。爱吃醋，但是绝对不会因为吃醋和你闹不开心。

55：记得你每个月的特殊时期。

56：吵架时绝对不说“分手”二字。

57：吵架时，你说了分手他绝对会努力的哄你，因为他知道你说的是气话。

58：成熟又不缺乏幽默。

59：有男子汉气概但是没有大男子主义。

60：天塌了，他会给你顶着。

61：说不清楚为什么爱你，爱你什么，可就是非常爱你。

62：你问他：“你能爱我永远吗？”他会说：“我不敢保证，但是我敢肯定的是，在我生命终结之前，我会一直这么爱你的。”

Practical Attachment

What a sunny day today ~
What a lucky day for me too when i drove to Gaya Street, straight got parking... *awesome and nice too*
Hmmm...
Well, today i attend with the Practical Attachment at my college to talk about the practical~~~

And guess what, it attracting me!!
Is at Singapore!!
Minimum allowance is $450 oh!!!! T.T
argh!!!!

i really wanna go, i really wanna left my house, but...
i know i cant.. why? 1st, my family especially mom n dad sure don let me go!!! argh!!!
I WANT TO GO!!!! =.=lll
can i go??
pls pls pls!! I wanna leave here!!

hmmm.. its free accommodations, got allowance, include with insurance, got ppl guide u, what else? erm.. free the facilities of the accommodations, just don have the TV, Computers and entertainment as well!! wah liao!!
how am i going to get this?? @_@
help!!!!
I really wish i can go!!! pls!

Rush

Just now at 2148pm, a staff of Air Asia is calling me for asking me to go interview at this coming 21 Oct at LCCT - Sepang..
at 1st, when i heard it im super happy..
but after i think, it might bring to me sad..
why?
1st, on 21 Oct is at Thursday..
and im gonna missed class.. (i just start class this weeks as u guys know)
2nd, i scared im fail again like the stupid MAS!!! (gave me a damn good reason)
3rd, its expensive of the air ticket.. T.T Almost RM700
4th, i don know how now??
5th, once i reach there, where am i going to stay?
6th, if i fail, im gonna face scolding by my dad again and again i heard those bad things!! argh!!!

Can anyone telling me how???
i really confused about this?

Post for ntg

Hmmm.. 

well, i cant believe that my 2 weeks holidays just pass like NOTHING!!! =.=lll

1st weeks of holiday i had nothing to do but just stay at home.. wake up and everyday play FB, MSN, and movie.. that's all to pass the day.. 

2nd weeks of holiday is just busy with my little girl (dog) as she felt down from car on Tuesday!!! @_@ 

Then, the next day bring her back to clinic again.. >< even the doctor oso can know me.. =.=

What else? then the next day again? see doctor.. WHY?? 

She doesn't want to eat anything!!! T.T 

argh!!!! 

This is the 1st day (jump down from car) and doesn't eat anythings but just milk..

Hmmm.. Next Monday gonna start class~ >< argh!!!
but good.. Coz this is the short semester.. wakaka..
i think do not have any trip again.. Which mean the Sandakan is the last trip of us~~
but i know in the future, sure they are have many place to let me travel.. ^^v
Now i was wondering where i can go work?
I don want to go back to the City Mall that company again~~ Damn HATE IT!!!
HRRRRR
Where??
I prayed that GOD will lead me all the time when i going this.. =)

What else? Nowadays i keep flu.. T.T argh.. don know what happen to me.. T.T 

I love this crackers!!! Damn love it!! gonna buy it again.. =)

See, its full~~ Yummy!!! 

Legend of the Fist: The Return of Chen Zhen

Legend of the Fist: The Return of Chen Zhen (simplified Chinese: 精武风云－陈真) is a 2010 Hong Kong martial arts action film directed by Andrew Lau. The film is a continuation of the 1995 television series Fist of Fury, with Donnie Yenreprising his role as Chen Zhen, a role made famous by Bruce Lee in the 1972 film Fist of Fury. Legend of the Fist: The Return of Chen Zhen is set during the Second Sino-Japanese War in Japanese-occupied Shanghai, seven years after the events of the series. Principal photography for the film began in November 2009 and ended in early February 2010; filming took place in Shanghai. The film was shown out of competition during the opening night of the 67th Venice International Film Festival and 2010 Toronto International Film Festival. The film was released theatrically in Hong Kong on 23 September 2010.

Story begin with Legend of the Fist: The Return of Chen Zhen is set in Shanghai before the Second Sino-Japanese War, seven years after the apparent death of Chen Zhen, who was shot after avenging his teacher (Huo Yuanjia) in Fist of Fury. A mysterious stranger arrives from overseas and befriends a local businessman and owner of a prominent nightclub frequented by foreign dignitaries. That man is Chen Zhen in disguise, who is part of the local resistance. Disguising himself as a masked fighter(based on the Green Hornet sidekick Kato) by night, Chen foils the plans of the Japanese to assassinate the son of a local Warlord(General Zeng) who has been collaborating with the Japanese and place the blame on a rival Warlord(General Zhuo), thereby causing civil war and aiding the subsequent Japanese invasion. With the operation foiled, Tokyo sends a death list of 100 names to the Colonel in charge of intelligence operations in China, to be killed within a month. To smoke out the masked hero who foiled their operation last time, the Japanese leak the death list which causes panic among the populace, and pay a visit to the nightclub where Chen Zhen, disguised as his dead comrade Qin Tiansheng, is masquerading in the day as a partner of Master Liu, the nightclub owner and an influential businessman. As Chen Zhen looks nothing like his dead comrade who used to wear spectacles, the Japanese suspect of him of being the masked warrior and challenge him to save as many people as possible. Most of the people on the death list refuse to leave, and have to be forced to leave by Chen Zhen's friend who is an Inspector in the ineffectual, British controlled police force, and while Chen Zhen saves many of those on the death list, he is unable to save everyone in time. Eventually the Colonel's younger brother leads a team of killers to kill the editor of the Shanghai Times, Chen Zhen's friend and comrade in the resistance. Chen Zhen arrives in the nick of time to see his friend killed right before his eyes and avenges him by killing all of the Japanese on the scene. Meanwhile Chen Zhen is pursuing a romantic relationship with Kiki, one of the nightclub hostesses, whom is actually a Captain in the Japanese army and one of their best spies. However Kiki starts to have conflicting feelings due to her love for Chen Zhen and does not inform the Colonel of Chen Zhen's real identity and Chen Zhen eventually figures out who the spy in the nightclub is after noticing that Kiki always orders a particular brand of cigarettes even though she does not know how to smoke, and warns her to immediately leave Shanghai. At this point, the Colonel, suspecting Kiki's loyalty, kidnaps the girlfriend of General Zeng's son and forces Kiki to kill her, even though they are both close friends. The incident is blamed on General Zhuo and General Zeng, backed by Japanese troops attack General Zhuo's forces, starting the second Sino-Japanese war. Eventually the Japanese simply kidnap Chen Zhen off the street in broad daylight and torture him at the Japanese Head Quarters. At the same time, Chen Zhen's comrades in the resistance, together with Chen Zhen's sister and his Inspector friend, stage a raid on the Japanese Headquarters and suceed in causing serious damage with the use of fire and explosives. As Chen Zhen has taken pictures with his comrades before, the Japanese are able to easily track down and have them hanged in public, while the Colonel rapes Qin Tiansheng's sister(albeit misunderstood her as Chen Zhen's biological sister). Chen Zhen is thrown out of a car infront of the nightclub and is comatose for many days while he heals from his injuries. With the Japanese invasion underway and General Zhuo killed in action with his forces in full retreat, there seems to be nothing the resistance can do to preventing the Japanese from occupying Shanghai. However the Colonel sends Kiki, now clad in a Japanese army uniform, to the nightclub to issue a challenge to fight Chen Zhen in martial combat at the Hongkou Dojo, the same one that Chen Zhen defeated in Fist of Fury. Chen Zhen accepts the challenge and defeats all the students of the Dojo, before facing the Colonel in one on one combat, which he wins. Although the Japanese eventually occupy Shanghai, Chen Zhen continues fighting as part of the resistance.

Kiki~ 

Finally

Oh Well~~ Finally my birthday is passed~~
And finally that my mom found a new servant~
And finally that i can rest awhile for not doing housework
and finally that i can sleep late a bit..
and finally that i can do whatever i want~
and finally i can concentrate on my exam
and finally i can no need to work anymore!!!
and finally i can do what?
and finally i can love what i want to do..
and finally i can what??? @_@
Oh ya, and finally i can go shopping and movie!!! XD

Malaysian Study

Well, yesterday night i tried my best to "memorise" the answer for my exam of Malaysian Study for today (20/8) mid term exam~ 

but in the end, im failed to memorise it or study with it.. because its totally stress.. because almost half of my coursemate is failed.. and i felt so so pressure at all~~

I kept tell myself that don give myself too pressure, maybe the exam question will not be harder as i think.. 

So, i went to my room and took my Mr Lappie to play FB game.. ^^v 

Then, talked phone with friend awhile and around 1230am, went to sleep... 

This morning when i woke up, my brain totally blank~

I wanted to take revision, and feel sleepy and lazy, but i had to do it because later 1040am i will take the exam alone.. T_T 

And for your extra information, that is my whole life 1st time exam alone.. Its sound scary~ >

Then went to college, my good "uncle" - Fred is accompany me while he is eating his real breakfast and his "breakfast = smoking".. ahahaha... and he is such a good uncle... =] then, suddenly appear with Kaesen~~ LOL!! and he wanted to shock me from back but his mission failed!!! wakakakaka... and both of them eating breakfast while i stressing and sracthing my head!!! T_T 

Then went to class as usual which is Malaysian Study subject also.. >,< 

and seriously i keep stress-ing already.. during the class i kept concentrate on lecturer and takes notes as well.. and i din study again.. =.=lll

And this is the time come.... MID TERM!!! 

alone.. quite.. no one with me except the ah beng lecturer><

so lastly he dump me alone in class and he told me that he got class need to teach!!! @@ faint!! 

so, i just as usual just normal and concentrate my exam.. 

1 Hour later, i done my exam... i directly went to the office and i'm luckily met with the lecturer so i asked him to mark infront of me... and i felt sorry that actually that time he was totally busy with his job, but he also marked the paper too.. thanks so much to him.. but too bad is im too stupid as well, too honest to him... 

In the section b, actually i just correct 6.5marks but he go counted it as 7.5 marks.. then i told him to re-count and is 6.5 marks.. T_T and means it decrease my marks but not increase my marks!! stupid Me!!! T_T haiz.. but im very happy as well coz i get 5.4% /10% .. =] Praise the LORD!!! 

After that, went to Block A to wait my mom came to fetch me and uncle Fred home.. =] erm.. then today finally i can eat KFC as my lunch.. the services of the KFC quite bad!! don really like it.. like turtle!! >

but suppose just now lunch is Burger King, but because of some reason, so i choose to eat KFC as my lunch.. ^^

and this afternoon raining quite heavy!! ^_^ wanted to sleep afternoon but my bro ask me to do somethings.. =.=

erm.. then today is Matta Fair as well.. and i chosed to do not help my EX company anymore! Since the boss can be 2 faces of people, i don want.. In front of me is okie, but at the back of me said me like "pura-pura sakit coz of the chicken pox" damn u la!! Now is the time that why all the staff leave them!!!!

其实我很在乎你

我们结束吧！不是说我不爱你了，只是我们将各奔东西，去我们都不熟悉的世界，那里没有你，也没有我！我不想用一句承诺，来缠住你一辈子，如果我们有缘的话，我相信当我们大学毕业的时候，我们还会在一起的！不要哭，我们应该勇敢地去面对，毕竟在将来的路上还有很多比这更让我们无法接受的事情！明天我将不在你身边，你要照顾好自己，不要让我担心，记得要快乐啊！因为只有你快乐，我才会快乐！”元钧一口口吸着烟，对我说了这些话。因为夜很黑，我看不清他的表情，但借着微弱的月光，我看见了一颗晶莹剔透的东西从他那消瘦的脸庞滑落，所以我知道他是爱我的，所以我会快乐的去面对即将到来的大学生活。因为只有我快乐，他才会快乐啊！
　　忘了哪位哲人曾说过这样的话“距离产生美，不过要小心，距离有了美没了”，也许正应验了这位哲人的话，在半年后，元钧又恋爱了，那个女生似乎比我优秀了很多。于是我陷入了深深的自卑与怀疑中。我开始怀疑他对我说的每一句话，我不知道他们哪句是真的，哪句是假的；我开始怀疑自己，难道我真的有那么差劲吗？我失去了往日挂在脸上自信的笑容，失去了对爱情的憧憬与信心，一味低迷的我失去了人生的方向。
　　直到我遇见了他，叶枫。他每天变着法的逗我开心，给我讲笑话，给我唱歌，给我送花，陪我一起吃饭……。让我慢慢的脱离那种一个人的孤独感，但是内心深处我告诉自己，即使他可以给我他的全部，但我也不可以爱上他，因为从元钧那里让我明白男人都一样，爱你的时候，你缺点都变成了优点，但当他一旦不爱你了，你的优点都变成了缺点，他连多看你一眼都觉得是浪费时间。就这样我不再相信爱情，不再相信男人，一个人漫无目的活着。
　　就这样过了若干年，虽然我清清楚楚地知道枫一直都很爱我，一直默默地陪在我身边照顾我，保护我，疼惜我……。，但是我总是假装不知道，因为不知道他对我的爱，究竟能维持多久，我不知道我还有没有权利去享受爱情的甜蜜与幸福。面对枫为我所作的一切，我总是莞尔一笑，然后告诉他不要在我身上浪费时间了，他应该找到一个比我好很多的女人，我并不适合他，他应该拥有一个他爱的，同时很爱他的女人，与他幸福的过一辈子，而那个女人不会是我。每每当我对他说这些的时候，他总是笑着对我说，“我的幸福只有你能给，别的女人给不了！”。我知道我们都中了同一种毒，掉进了一个人的世界都走不出来了，只是他中的毒比我深，默默的爱我这么些年，但是他是幸福的，因为他没有遇到那个能让他对爱情丧失信心的人，所以他总是微笑着向往着未来，想象着我和他在一起生活的美好画面，对爱情充满了憧憬。
　　从那以后我不再说什么，无论他为我做什么，我都会表现得很开心，因为我明白，“当一个爱你的人，看到你为他所做的事而感到开心的时候，他就会很幸福”。枫，有这种幸福，而我却没有这种权利，当我想为元钧作些什么的时候，他总是会对我说，“求你了，云，不要这样好吗？我们已经结束了，我现在爱的是蓝蓝，不要让我为难好吗！”，就这样我不再联系他了。
　　我知道他已经不爱我了，一点都不爱了。我所能做的只是远远的看着他们幸福的表情，暗自伤神流泪。
　　突然有一天，元钧跑来找我，当时我的心情有些复杂，这是分手以后他第一次主动来找我，我问他“有什么事吗？我们不是已经分手了吗？我想我们之间应该不会有交集了吧！”
　　他支吾了半天也没说出话来，我有些不耐烦地说“再不说，我可要走了，不好意思，我可没时间陪您在这里闲坐着！”。他说“云，我知道当初是我不对，我不应该离开你，可是你知道吗？当时我在那里一个人真的很寂寞，就在这时，蓝蓝走进了我的世界，我就这样爱上了她，不管当初我是为了摆脱一个人的孤寂，还是因为我爱她，但我现在真得很爱她，我真的好想娶她，和她一起生活！可是她说只要你一天没有归宿，她就一天没有安全感，害怕失去我，虽然我跟他说，我和你已经是过去式了，我现在只爱她一个人，可她总觉得你是个威胁，求你了，找个好人就嫁了吧！我不值得你等啊！而且我真的不爱你了！我知道这样做对你不公平，但我真的没有其他办法了，你找个好人就嫁了吧，只有你嫁出了，我和蓝蓝才会结婚。”泪水不知不觉从我的眼角流出，我沙哑着嗓子对他说：“元钧，我现在真的把你看扁了，我真的搞不明白自己当初为什么会那么喜欢你这种男人，我告诉你，我过得怎样用不着您老人家操心，但我相信我一定会过得比你好，至少我还有一个真真实实爱我的人，不像你，一条摇尾乞怜的狗！”当时的我真的好伤心，你可以不爱我，但不应该伤害我的自尊！就在我最无助的时候，枫出现了，他一把拉起我，抱紧我，然后对元钧大吼，“你还是个男人嘛！连女人都欺负。云的幸福由我负责，你不要再来骚扰她，她已经被你伤的遍体鳞伤了，你还想怎么地啊！以后你给我离云远远的，不许你再来伤害她！”就这样枫把我抱出了咖啡屋！虽然这时的我已经哭得稀里哗啦，可还是隐隐约约听见了背后元钧恳求声“求你了，云”！我想，这个男人真的不值得我爱了，我们真的该结束了。这时我抱着枫，就像抓住了一根救命的稻草，把我从痛苦的边缘拉回来。突然，好想有个家，有一个真的爱我的男人在那个家里，等我吃饭，等我回家。叶枫给了元钧从未给过我的安全感，我知道在不知不觉中，已经有个男人闯进了我的世界，同时又走进了我的心，而那个人就是枫！我知道我已经离不开他了！可是我不知道，我还有没有拥有幸福的权力，还能不能拥有爱情的甜蜜。走出咖啡屋，趴在枫的肩头，我轻声地说了声“娶我好吗，枫”，我感觉到了枫的心停止了跳动，紧接着传来兴奋的声音，枫抱着我在路上转圈，大声地说，“哈哈哈，我是这个世界上最幸福的男人，我娶到了这个世界上最好的女人，可以和你一起生活是我这辈子最大的幸福了，以后你的幸福就由我来负责了，我不会再要你哭泣，无论为谁！我都不允许你再伤心！”。
　　一个月后，我和枫举行了婚礼，我感觉自己是这个世界最幸福的女人了，遇见了像枫这样的好男人这样爱我，不给我伤心的机会，我会尽我最大的努力，让枫幸福！因为我发现我已经深深地爱上他了！
　　我知道现在的我真得很幸福，而且终于明白，原来我一直都很爱枫，他的爱是简单的，但很真实，能让我实实在在的感受到，让我在不知不觉中无可救药地爱上他。其实我想要的就是那种简简单单的幸福，其实我一直都很在乎他——枫
　　不要为了一个不爱你的人去浪费你的时间与心情，珍惜身边那个值得珍惜的人，那个你开心陪你开心，你不开心哄你开心，别人欺负你时第一个站出来挺你，那个不让你受一点委屈的人，当你不小心丢了心情时，为你指明生活方向的人，无论怎样都一直在你身边的那个人。因为当你失去他的时候，你才会发现其实你一直都很在乎他，不要等到那个爱你的人冷了心的时候，才发现你爱的是他，在乎的是他！幸福有两种，一种是理想中的，很美，但像泡沫一样易碎；而另一种是实实在在的，很平淡但很真实。幸福其实真得很简单！